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[gin_tonic]

Real Life is a bitch! After some private posts that are far to personal for anybody to see, I now feel able (despite the fact that my body won't stop shaking) to tell everyone that I hate Real Life. Des is in ICU at the moment and I've been alternately crying, shaking, not really eating and not really sleeping now. I can't sit still. Thank God for Jen, who is - why is life so fucking unfair?! - in the same situation with her bf Chris. I don't know what I would do without her. And thank God for Des' friends who keep me updated.
That's that for now. I need to do something. I'm going crazy here.